Letters

So yeah, I took a long break from blogging.  But the truth was, that I needed the time usually spent on either of my blogs to be spent growing my relationship with God.  While I knew He was with me, I still felt distant.  But one day as I was writing a letter in my notebook (yes, I write letters to people that they will never see) I decided to try writing one to God.  To my surprise, I filled the entire page.  Woah.  It felt good to put down in words what was floating around in my heart/brain.  (<--- yeah, I know, they're connected...)  So then I wrote another letter the next day, then a few days after that, and before I knew it, I had a habit formed.  2 months later - yesterday - I sat down and reread them.  It was so cool to see how God had changed my life in those past weeks.  There were letters where whole sentences were written in CAPS, others where teardrop stains wrinkled the page.  But then there were letters of joy and happiness.  In just 2 months my life had been flipped upside down.  But it was for the better.  My relationship with God grew in ways I never thought possible.  I found comfort reading the Psalms and Proverbs.  When I found a verse that I loved, I would write in in my notebook, then ask God how it applied to my life.  Over time I was shown the answers.  

-Autumn Mott